Micah 6:8

"He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does YHVH require of you but to do justice, to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God."

Saturday, June 28, 2008

50%

Today officially marks the beginning of the end. I have, as of today, with the amazing help of God made it to my half way mark. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!! I honestly do not know if the weight I have chosen for myself is the same as the weight as He has chosen for me but I am fairly confident that if I am wrong then His weight is less then mine.
When I started this journey in January I weighed 190 lbs. This is/was a huge weight for me. Growing up I was always naturally thin. I never weighed more then 125 lbs until I was over 20yrs of age. Being 5' 7.5" that is fairly thin. I ate like a horse. My metabolism was on super warp speed and as I approached my 24th birthday I weighed 140 lbs. This weight was very reasonable and in my head I looked very healthy and fit. I stayed this weight until I started to plan my wedding. It was a very stressful time as my wonderful DH was very much a mama's boy and being the baby in his family and the last to marry of four siblings, well, his mom had far TOO much say in our wedding day. Needless to say during the 6 months of planning I gained 32 lbs of fat. I maintained this weight until I became pregnant with my first son at the age of 27. After his birth I quickly became pregnant again with our second son and my weight stayed up. After all was said and done, I weighed in at 190 lbs. I maintained this weight never really fluctuating in the last 5 yrs at all. I had resolved after trying every diet known to man that I would remain this way the rest of my life and I was trying to wrap my head and heart around it. I did not like me very much. In my mind I still saw the healthy girl I was at 25 yet when I passed a mirror I would have to do a second take as what I saw in the glass was not who I saw in my mind. The last 5 yrs have been very difficult on me and my family. I battled with depression and was medicated for awhile. I believe it was all related to my weight, and the way I felt about myself because of it. Needless to say, January came around and as I was cleaning my basement I came across a book my mother had given my a few years earlier. I hadn't even looked at it as I knew it was for weight loss and I thought I was a hopeless cause. This time I picked up the book and started to read. The words coming from the pages gripped me in a way I hadn't felt for such a very long time and my journey with Thin Within had begun.
Has it been an easy journey, no. It is a very simple plan but after years of self defeat I have alot of emotional healing to work through and alot of bad habits I have to allow Him to break in me. That is what is so great about this program, He does the work, NOT me. I only need to listen and obey and He does the healing, restoration and transforming.
What an amazing transformation it is. In the past 6 months I have released 25 lbs, and lost a total of 14 1/4 inches.
God IS faithful and He WILL complete the work He has begun in me. Praise God!!!!!

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Walking the Walk

I want to say sorry to all of you who read as I am finding I am terribly bad at staying up to date on this blog. I am full of good intentions but have not been finding the time to spend on the computer. What have I been doing with all the time I use to spend on the computer you ask?
I am walking. I am doing my Thin Within book study and I am reading my 30 day Walking the Walk. All of this adds up to alot of time on me and my relationship with God and not much time for computing. I will try to post at least once a week, I will try. I also want to add a spot on here to track my walking but I am not very computer savvy so it may take me some time to figure it out. For now I will share with you something that I was reading the other day that has me really thinking.....

Imagine you stop at a convenience store, buy a jumbo bag of potato chips, say grace in your car, then chow down on the entire bag. You'd feel pretty silly wouldn't you? Thanking God for the potato chips would feel false, because you know you were about to do something harmful to yourself- something God didn't want you to do. You may have plenty of reasons why you need to pound a bag of potato chips at that moment, but doing it for God is not one of them.
What if you really did do all your eating and drinking for the glory of God? What would your diet be like? It would be full of foods that would keep you healthy, because God wants us to be healthy so we can do His work.
Now, the question is, Why don't you always eat or drink for the glory of God? Could you? Should you? Would you benefit from doing so? What do you have to lose by trying?
Leslie Sansone Walking the Walk pg63

I think the reason I don't always eat the healthiest choices is because of habit. I KNOW that the healthy stuff tastes good and I enjoy it but the unhealthy stuff tastes good too. I believe that having the unhealthy stuff on occasion is not a problem. I do think for me though that I may need to give it up for a season as I am continually drawn to making bad food choices when the unhealthy stuff is readily available. I will purposely eat less so I can have the sugary sweet dessert. I know how bad sugar can be for my health and yet I want it. I need to decide if my wanting it is taking away from my walk with God. Not that having dessert is a sin. It is not. Hear me on this, BUT for me I am choosing to put something (dessert) above God. And that is what the Bible calls an idol. So for me at this moment in time having dessert is a sin because of the value I am placing on it. Make sense? I know that I will benefit from this, as when I eat alot of sugar I tend to get headaches and become extremely tired.
This is my goal, to give up sweets. For how long I am not sure. I will pray about it but I can say with confidence that it will most likely be for a very LONG time as they have a very strong hold on me.
I want the hold of sweets to become the hold of God.

Friday, June 13, 2008

40 day follow-up

Well, lets just say that some of it was good, some was bad and some fell somewhere in between. Overall, in the big picture it was a great 40 days. I found alot of new online buddies who are travelling the same path as myself. I joined an online support group that lasts for the remainder of the summer. And I even started to exercise. Not everyday but much more then I had been. My live online group meets once a week on Wed. nights and it is great. We are going through the 12 week workbook together. I think this is very important for me to have a group to do it with. When I try to go at it alone I usually give up quickly. So I have committed to read the chapter every week and do the daily lessons that go along with it. On top of that I have just discovered Leslie Sansone. She has a whole in home walking program called walk away the pounds. I have been doing her videos for the past 10 days and I LOVE them, I have been borrowing them from my local library. I love them so much that I ordered her book called Walking the Walk getting fit with faith. It comes with a DVD that has a 1 mile and 2 mile walk on it. The book is broken down into 30 days it has scripture readings, meditations, health and fitness info and lots more for everyday. There is a place to journal your progress and what activity you did daily. I am really excited to add this to my Thin-Within workbook as I feel it will compliment it nicely. I will let you know in 30 days how the walking is going. I will start the walking on Monday so July 16th will be the 30 day mark, if I walk everyday. I may take the weekends off. I will let you know as I do it.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

The day after....

Well, I don't have anything exciting to share with you all. I guess God had other plans.
NO ONE even noticed that I had released 20lbs since they last saw me. I was saying to Lévis on our way home that I didn't even care that they hadn't noticed. Now for those of you who know me well, that is HUGE. Normally I would be really upset if someone didn't notice that I had lost weight, cut my hair, had something new on. BUT I really wasn't bothered. I guess God had something different to teach me. It wasn't how to share Him with others, (I am sure that will come later) But for right now He wanted me to be happy with me, because of Him. NOT because of what other people thought about me. Not because of them noticing the weight I have lost. He wanted me to be content in knowing that I did this for Him and not for the approval of men.
WOW! I honestly didn't see that coming. Here I was so worried over what to say, how to respond when they noticed me and all the while God was wanting me to just notice Him.
Thank you Jesus, that I got it. I was happy and content knowing that this is about You and Me. No one else 's opinion matters. Yeah!!!
For all of you who had me in prayer, I am sure that is part of the reason that I responded so differently then I would have in the recent past. So thank you.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Called to give an account

I am faced with a hard decision this coming weekend and I am asking for anyone that reads this to please keep me in prayer. I will be with family at a reunion of sorts, an Anniversary party to be exact. The people involved for the most part are non-believers and have asked that my husband and myself refrain from talking about God or religion when we are with them. As difficult as this has been I know that it is about to become much harder.
Then ONLY reason I have lost any weight is because of God's faithfulness to me and my obedience to Him. When I am asked about my recent weight release I pray that I will have the boldness to give an account that gives God the glory He deserves. I did not release this weight because of my own good fortune or will. I lost it because of a brokenness before the throne of God. I pray that this recent weight release will be a stepping stone that will allow me to share the gospel with them. even if not now that it will at least open the door for me to share about my growing relationship with God.
So, if I happen to pop into your mind over the weekend would you please say a little prayer for me?