Micah 6:8

"He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does YHVH require of you but to do justice, to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God."

Monday, September 22, 2008

Checking in...

I am feeling so much better and I think in part it is due to the change of seasons. I love the fall. Everything starts up agin and I no longer feel alone. Not that I am ever alone but I am far more involved with people in the fall. Bible studies begin, school groups start, we are away from the house more in the fall then we are in the summer. I LOVE my home but I love to be out with other people sometimes too.
I have not released any weight this week but that is okay. I have managed to eat within 0-5 the majority of my meals and I am rejoicing over that. Over the past week I have been reflecting on my plateau and I have come to realize that I have been placing far to much importance on exercise. I was doing so much exercise during my plateau and was becoming discouraged in the fact that I was not releasing weight. Unfortunately I was relying on physical activity for weight loss and not God. During the week that I finally released weight again I had actually cut my exercising in half. I am still exercising, but I am not so focused on it to provide my weight loss. I am once again in the place of surrender to God for my weight release. It feels good to be back.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Hello

I realize it has been a VERY LOOOOONG time since I have shown my face and for that I am sorry. I feel as though I have been going through a slump. A season of down-ness (is that even a word?). I have kind of been hiding or hibernating from everyone and everything. I have not only let this blog slip, I have been distant with friends and with my thinwithin eating and as sad as it is I have been distant from God. Please don't get me wrong, I am still so deeply in LOVE with God but it is kind of like He has become an old friend I rarely talk to. You know the ones, the friend who is always there for you and when you talk it is like you never stopped but keeping up with them day to day has fallen by the wayside. I am at a place now where I want that to change. I need it to change. I am no longer satisfied to be close yet distance friends I want to be inseparable.
We will be inseparable.
I think in part my distance has been a reflection of my eating, and my eating a reflection of my distance. I have been at a plateau for the past 6 weeks. It has been hard and unfortunately I have not come through it victoriously. Truthfully, during this plateau I turned into a very rebellious and stubborn and self-defeated whining brat.
At the beginning of the plateau, I was still so positive and optimistic. I believed that I would get through this. That God had a purpose and a plan for this and that if I would listen and dig in He would reveal himself to me through it. Unfortunately bu the thrid or fourth week of no weight change I started to drag my feet with resistance. I was becoming miserable and my eating was reflecting that. I am utterly schocked that during the past 2-3 weeks I have not gained weight. I was willfully overeating 3 weeks ago and I felt awful for it, physically and spiritually. Then 1 week ago today I decided that enough was enough. Since God had been faithful to me in my rebellion and not allowed me to gain weight, the least I could do was to eat according to His will and guidelines. Eating the way I knew was right, following thinwithin principles. I have not been following it 100% yet God has honoured my efforts and I am pleased to report that He has taken another 3 lbs from me.
I do not deserve the faithfulness He shows. I am humbled and grateful.
Lord, please forgive me.