Micah 6:8

"He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does YHVH require of you but to do justice, to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God."

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Hello

I realize it has been a VERY LOOOOONG time since I have shown my face and for that I am sorry. I feel as though I have been going through a slump. A season of down-ness (is that even a word?). I have kind of been hiding or hibernating from everyone and everything. I have not only let this blog slip, I have been distant with friends and with my thinwithin eating and as sad as it is I have been distant from God. Please don't get me wrong, I am still so deeply in LOVE with God but it is kind of like He has become an old friend I rarely talk to. You know the ones, the friend who is always there for you and when you talk it is like you never stopped but keeping up with them day to day has fallen by the wayside. I am at a place now where I want that to change. I need it to change. I am no longer satisfied to be close yet distance friends I want to be inseparable.
We will be inseparable.
I think in part my distance has been a reflection of my eating, and my eating a reflection of my distance. I have been at a plateau for the past 6 weeks. It has been hard and unfortunately I have not come through it victoriously. Truthfully, during this plateau I turned into a very rebellious and stubborn and self-defeated whining brat.
At the beginning of the plateau, I was still so positive and optimistic. I believed that I would get through this. That God had a purpose and a plan for this and that if I would listen and dig in He would reveal himself to me through it. Unfortunately bu the thrid or fourth week of no weight change I started to drag my feet with resistance. I was becoming miserable and my eating was reflecting that. I am utterly schocked that during the past 2-3 weeks I have not gained weight. I was willfully overeating 3 weeks ago and I felt awful for it, physically and spiritually. Then 1 week ago today I decided that enough was enough. Since God had been faithful to me in my rebellion and not allowed me to gain weight, the least I could do was to eat according to His will and guidelines. Eating the way I knew was right, following thinwithin principles. I have not been following it 100% yet God has honoured my efforts and I am pleased to report that He has taken another 3 lbs from me.
I do not deserve the faithfulness He shows. I am humbled and grateful.
Lord, please forgive me.

8 comments:

Christina said...

Good to have you back:-) I can totally relate to all that you said. And congrats on the 3 lbs released:-) That's awesome! Praise God for His faithfulness and patience with us!

Skinnyontheinside said...
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Skinnyontheinside said...

Thanks Christina, It is nice to be back :0)

Wani said...

I have been in a similar slump in my own life. I know what its like to want to be closer to God and your friends and yet not bring yourself to make the necessary steps to make it happen. Thank you for sharing, it gives me hope to hear I'm not the only one who goes through times like this. Hope you will reconnect with God and your friends.

Michelle said...

I'm on weight watchers and almost to my 10 %....you are doing great! I know plateaus are disheartening. Just keep doing what you are doing.

My only advice for that is to change things up. Take a few days and have really "high" food days (points is my mentality, sorry). Eat more than you normally would. THen get back to normal. That seems to help me move things.

Lil said...

I am so happy for your 3 pounds! I just looked at your profile and see that you like quilting too. Yippee! I have a quilty blog and if you like I can send you the url. Are you the Melanie who recently posted at TW about the 1 year anniversary?

Skinnyontheinside said...

Lil, I am NOT the 1yr Melanie, she is in CA and I am in Canada. I would love the link to your quilting blog you can send it to my email mellieguay @ Sympatico. ca (remove space)

Christina said...

Lil,
Just wanted to let you know that the Melanie who posted on the TW forums about the one year anniversary has a blog at http://melaniesthinwithinjourney.blogspot.com/

Christina :-)